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1st Entry...about the past

This is gonna be my first blog about me, my little secret and my way to reach PERFECTION!

Since 2006 I have been bulimic with little anoretic phases but Mia took overhand. For almost 5 years I have been struggling with my ED and sometimes it feels like there is no way out.

I have sad days but also happy days, even when the sad days occur more often. Unfortunately!

I think that my life could be perfect if I just lived after my simple rules to reach PERFECTION.

Well, what is PERFECTION to me?

PERFECTION is:

~to be disciplined

~to restrict yourself and curb your appetite to eat less

~SKINNINESS

~when other ppl envie you because of your thin look

~to have the controll

~to fit into a SIZE 0

The last point is my big goal I want to achieve. Due to my impatience I want to achieve it very quickly. In my opinion, I have already waited too long to fullfill my dream of being a Size Zero.

NOW I definitely want to go about it for better or worse. :)

The last two weeks I started with calorie restriction and cut out the carbs (rice, noodle, bread, potato, grains) and lived on lots of protein (fish, lean chicken, low-fat yogurt and milk), vegetables and fruit.

5 days ago I went to do the Proteinshake diet and had 3 times/day one Proteinshake.

Within these two weeks I lost 5,5 kg (11 lbs).

Of course, I did not only take care of nutrition but I also did some exercises.

Every second day I went jogging for at least 30 minutes. Afterwards I did weights for 15 minutes.

The other day I enjoyed Pilates and Yoga classes at home.

Today was my weigh-in and although I was happy about my result I have been kind of depressed because I wanted a better result in weight loss. I am really an impatient person and I always want the best results. 

In a way this feeling put me back and I gave up for the day and...binged. 

I really ate a lot of bad food though I felt full and sick.

After cookies, ice-cream, some noodles and chocolate I threw up but nevertheless I am sure there are still a lot of calories and fat in my body. :(

Nasty girl!

But hey! I did the last two weeks very good so let's forget about this terrible Sunday and move on.

My plan for tomorrow and Tuesday is to go on a liquid fast and on the third day I will allow me ONE meal per day.

This will also be the beginning of the 50 days ABC Boot Camp Diet. I will stick to it and hope to lose a lot of pounds!

On this blog I will inform you about my progress and my hopefully successfull weight loss.

My stats of today:

Weight: 64,4 kg (128,8lbs)

Waist: 75 cm

Hips: 95 cm

Bottom: 102 cm (I hate it!)

Thighs: 51 cm

I will post the changes every Sunday. So keep reading. ;)